On December 17th we went to our friend Meghan and Boston's Christmas party. Here is a picture of me and Allie from that. She is just too cute :)

This was Christmas Eve, they never really want to take a good picture unless I'm trying to take some of Allie, then they want one too.

 

 
Here is my little model baby. She was done taking pictures, but this one actually turned out pretty well.

They didn't want to give me a smile one, so I got a whole bunch of making face ones.

 

Christmas morning. Daddy decided it was a good idea to put baby powder all over the floor and make it look like Santa walked in it... Allie threw up on Christmas Eve :(

 

Johnny wasn't having it Christmas day when we were at my parents house. I did forget his blanket so that was a big part of the problem. we were there from about 10:30am to 6:30ish I believe. A very long day.

Oh baby girl how I love you so <3

 

That sums up our holidays for the most part. They were sick for a lot of this month. I'm hoping we can go to celebration lane tonight,it's the last nigh. I got to watch about half of my Christmas movies, I kinda got my Christmas jammie pictures of them. Maybe we will do zoo lights tomorrow night. We will see.

Happy New Years. Hoping for a even better 2017!

Our holiday bucket list...

Here is our Holiday Bucket List and some traditions too!

• Decorate gingerbread house
• Santa Claus---we've already gone once. we have an appointment to go with Ruby on December 12th and we are hoping to fit in one more time with Ruby, Paisley & Bradley...our yearly tradition.
• Snowflake Lane in Bellevue
• Zoo lights either Seattle or Tacoma
• Watch all of our Christmas movies

 

 

and I think that's pretty much it. I don't think we could do much more since I work so much. We will be going to Tim's work party, Camden's 1st birthday party & Meghan and Boston's Christmas party this month. We have to miss out on Shana and Kurt's ugly Christmas sweater party because it is on the same day as Tim's work party & Camden's 1St birthday party which we only get to stop by for :(


On Christmas Eve we will have my family over for a ham dinner and open up some of the Christmas presents. Christmas day we will open the kids presents and then go to my parents house where my mom's side of the family will be over and we breakfast and do presents. I'll bring coffee for my family in the morning from Starbucks, it has turned into a tradition! In the evening my grandma, my dad's mom will come over for dinner.


I'm hoping to get some fun Christmas jammie pictures of the kids and I have some really cute outfits for Allie to wear too, she just started to walk too so it's hard to get her to sit still. boo. Wish me luck.


Oh I love the holiday season. I'm not sure what we will do for New Years, I will work the next morning so nothing too crazy.

Never enough time...

Lately I've been so overwhelmed with life. Keeping the house clean, running errands, me time, husband time, kid time...it just never really feels like I have enough time for all. I feel like I'm losing myself because I always put my family and work first. I'm losing my creative side...all I want to do is read a book or work on a scrapbook. I can't even go into my craft room anymore, it is so messy, but one or all of the kids are always following me in there and then makes it worst then when I started.


Being a Mom is hard work especially when you work full time and commute. I try to keep up with everything but I get TIRED. I know it's all worth it to have my sweet babies. They are my everything and I wouldn't trade them for anything. I just need to learn how to balance it all better. Do I choose to get up a couple hours before them on my day off or do I sleep in? Do I start enforcing a bed time?


And my biggest flaw of all that only brings me down is comparing myself to my friends, to the ladies on instagram and to my old self. Even to other blog Moms...I suck I know. and now to get back to work :) thanks for letting me vent

Family Photos

We did our pictures November 12th 2016 in Tacoma at Wright Park. We've got some great ones, not my favorite of me but I'll take them :)

Allie's Birth Story

Allie Grayson Ayers Birth Story...

February 12th 2016

1:14am

6lbs 12oz

19inches

I went to the doctors on February 11th for my 38 week appointment. I was 3 centimeters dilated and 50% effaced. My doctor was on vacation so I had the midwife. I asked her if she could scrap my membranes and she did! I thought I would have her in a couple of days because that’s what happened when I had Johnny. I also had to be monitored for 20 minutes after my appointment to make sure she was moving around.

Wednesday I was so busy at work making sure that I had everything done, hoping I wouldn’t be back on Friday, because I wanted to have her on Friday the 12th since I knew the due date and that I would be over 38 weeks by then. Anyways once I got home from work I thought about it and I didn’t remember her moving like she usually does, I called the nurse and had to lay on my left side and make sure she moved 5 times in an hour, she did. 

Back to Thursday, I had a hair appointment at 3:45pm I went to that and left there around 5:30pm and ordered Thai food for dinner (it’s Tim & I’s 10 years together on 02/11. I think I had started to get a few contractions then, I remember googling how to know real contractions vs. braxton hicks. When I got home I told Tim I thought I might be in labor. We ate dinner and started watching House. About 7:30ish Tim went and took a shower, I painted my nails and got all of my stuff together. 

We dropped the boys off at my parents around 8:30pm and my Mom followed us to the hospital. I got into the tirage room around 9:15pm. My contractions weren’t too bad then, by the time she was done asking me all the questions they were 2-3 minutes apart. They checked me and i was only 3.5 centimeters dilated, they wanted to send me home, I said NO. So I stayed in the tirage room for about an hour and a half and they checked me again, I was the same but 80% effaced now. They had me wait a little longer. They were also monitoring us because they didn’t like what they were seeing on the heart rate monitor.  

After a little bit I had her check me again and I was 4 centimeters dilated, she went and asked the delivering midwife if I could go to the delivery room and they finally let me! It was around 11:30pm. Before we went up to the delivery room I kept telling her I wanted my epidural ASAP. They told me I had to get an IV and do something else. Thankfully they did it for me in the tirage room. 

When we finally go to my delivery room they gave me some pain medicine in the IV and the contractions started to feel a little better. Tim went to the truck to get our bags and when he was gone my water broke. I felt a pop and then all this water coming out. This was worst then when my water broke with Jackson. After they got me all cleaned up the epidural guy got there and gave it to me. 

He was too late though, because my water broke and it sped up everything. When I was trying to lay back down on the bed after the epidural I was having contractions worst than before I got the epidural. My vagina hurt so bad too, I kept telling them it hurt, they checked and said I was ready to go. I don't remember how long I pushed for, it wasn't too long and I remember saying the epidural didn't work I can still feel it. LOL. I was pretty upset that it didn't kick in before it was time to have her.


My biggest fear is always that I won't get my epidural in time, and that happened. What makes it even worse is that I had been there for hours and they were being stubborn about moving me to the delivery room. If they had sooner than my epidural would have kicked in in time. boo.


The first thing I said after she was out, is it a girl...I was so paranoid she was going to be a boy. LOL. We forgot my brand new camera in the car and I was pretty bummed, all of the pictures of her are from our cell phones and I was so out of it I forgot to take some pictures that I would usually take. Oh well.


I am so in love with this little girl, she is pretty amazing <3

Jackson, Johnny & Allie

Jackson: He is three and a half now and is so grown up. He can do a lot for himself but also wants everyone else to do it for him. If he wants milk all you will hear from his is milk, miLK, MILK. We are working on that with him. We're also working on please and thank you. But he is the sweetest boy ever, he always says I miss you mom and cuddles up to me <3 He's been having a harder time when I leave lately too. Last night we went out for my sisters birthday and he started crying not wanting me to go and asking why :( He still won't poo in the toilet so we have to put a diaper on him to poo and he wears his undies during the day and a pull up during the night.

My little ladies man, Jackson with Skylie & Maila at the zoo.

Johnny: He is one and a half and this boy is TROUBLE! He loves to get on the kitchen chairs and get into everything. He has gotten into the formula a few times :( He loves to say mama mama, it's so cute. He has become such a mamas boy since Allie has been born. He likes to cuddle with me now :) He also loves his lawn mower and pushes it everywhere. And loves to throw rocks. He is also learning how to talk and has been saying so much. Yesterday he kept saying lets go, lets go so we took a walk to the 7/11 by our house. He wanted to go to the beach because daddy had taken him their the other day when I had taken the other two to a baby shower.

Johnny and Maila at the zoo. They're a month apart :)

Allie: She is just so cute. She just turned 4 months 06/12. She is starting to hold on to her toys and blanket a lot now. She likes to drink her bottle laying down in her nap nanny propped up with a blanket more than if you are holding her and feeding her. She has already been to two baby showers both for little boys, Archer and Bradley :) She went to the zoo for the first time a couple weekends ago. She loves the fart noise and always smiles when she hears it. Daddy is probably her favorite and she adores her brothers. He laugh is the cutest!

 

 

Whenever it's nice out we like to take the kids on walks either to the 7/11 by our house or we will go to different parks near the house. It's a lot of fun and a good way to get my steps in :)

and just like that we're a family of five

Allie Grayson Ayers made her appearance on Friday February 12th 2016 at 1:14am. 6lbs & 12oz and 19 inches long with lots of fuzzy dark brown hair.  

Jackson loves his sister and he's so cute with her.

so excited to hold his baby sister

Johnny loves her but not the way Jackson does, he likes to hit her and is a little rough with her. Johnny became a lot more needy once she arrived, he needs me more than

Johnny, Allie, Jackson

10 days old

She will be 7 weeks tomorrow April 1st.


The first week home with all 3 kids was rough, even the second week. By six weeks I was really getting the hang of it and then I went back to work. Total game changer, I feel like I'm back to how I felt the first couple of weeks.


I really miss all my kids, but mostly Allie. I feel so bad I was able to give the boys more of my attention and she barley gets any because I'm always helping them with something or cleaning. boo. I know it hurts me more than it hurts her.


She is such a good baby; she rarely cries and sleeps pretty well during the night, only getting up to eat 2-3 times a night. During the day she sleeps a lot too and really only cries when she is hungry.


One of my favorite pictures

37 weeks...full term!

How far along? 37 Weeks


Total weight gain: 19-20, I'm not really sure.



Maternity clothes? maternity all the way, jeans & shirts


Stretch marks? I'm pretty sure I have one really small one on my hip and the ones I already had on my tummy are just getting bigger


Sleep: I don't sleep very well. I miss being able to lay on my back.


Best moment this week: my doctors appointment. baby girls heart rate is in the 150s. I'm a "loose" 1cm, almost 2 and 70% effaced. Also getting the boys bag packed and my bag for the most part. Just have to add my hair stuff and make-up on my way out.


Miss Anything? jazzercise, I've officially stopped going. It was getting too hard on my body especially after standing all day at work.


Movement: yep!



Food cravings: fountain coke is my favorite, I would drink it all day if it was okay.


Anything making you queasy or sick: no



Gender: Girl



Labor Signs: I'm not sure if they are Braxton hicks, or real contractions. I think I'm being paranoid because it's getting so close.



Symptoms: heartburn/ acid reflux.


Belly Button in or out? super out, I don't think it will ever look normal again :(



Wedding rings on or off? off :(



Happy or Moody most of the time: Happy



Looking forward to: My next doctors appointment. 38 weeks I'm going to have them scrap my membrane to help baby girl come early! 

36 weeks

How far along? 36 Weeks


Total weight gain: 18ish



Maternity clothes? maternity all the way, jeans & shirts, I even started wearing my maternity workout pants.


Stretch marks? I saw one on my hip, but I'm not sure if it was a stretch mark or from my clothes when I was sleeping. Also the ones on my tummy I can't tell if they are new or the old ones are going up more :(



Sleep: I could sleep fine if I wasn't sharing my bed. I moved to Jackson's bed for a couple hours this morning and I slept so much better...maybe I will do this until baby girl comes.


Best moment this week: My work holiday party. and getting the kids room all clean and organized! Also I had my 36 week appointment and I'm 1cm dilated!


Miss Anything? being able to do jazzercise without feeling like I can't move.


Movement: very much, I usually feel her most on my left side. 



Food cravings: coke and the usual. I also could go for some mashed potatoes right about now! and some baked chips!


Anything making you queasy or sick: no



Gender: Girl



Labor Signs: No



Symptoms: heartburn/ acid reflux. Had to have the hubby buy me some pepto this week.



Belly Button in or out? been out for awhile now



Wedding rings on or off? off :( how I miss it so, but I really don't want them to have to cut if off my finger if it ever got stuck.



Happy or Moody most of the time: Happy! 



Looking forward to: My next doctors appointment. 37 weeks to see how much more dilated I am. I'm hoping to have baby girl on the 12th. Hubby wants her to come on the 14th or 29th...I really don't want a valentines baby or a leap year baby. lol.


I've got baby girl's bag packed, but I still have mine and the boys bag to pack. I also have a few random things I need to purchase before she comes. and wash the bottles! I'm getting really nervous, the waiting game is on. I really hope I don't go into labor while I'm at work, that is really my biggest fear. I also don't know what I would do if I went into labor and I'm with the boys. This is going to be interesting, I know my mom can watch them but I want her with me. So we will see what happens....